an overactive imagination, clumsy awkward writing, and a cultivated immaturity thrown into one bundle of well-intentioned insecurity (with flagrant abuse of the parenthetical to boot)
posted by Le Synge Bleu at 12:49 PM
I have this recurring nightmare that I'm asked to define myself in some way in precisely 1200 characters or less. The words parade around me in a grotesque circle dance to Disney's "It's a small world after all", gradually inprisoning me in the box they've formed around me. I can't seem to escape this box-o-words, despite numerous desperate editing attempts, and the words are mocking me and shouting slanderous epithets galore about my semantic failures. I wake up, sobbing, and thankful to be in my bed and not at a computer frantically typing and deleting like a madwoman. Clearly, I'm a giant neurotic contradiction in and of myself (who gets way too little sleep to boot). Despite my massive insecurity, I can be pretty fun though...I mean, who doesn't love self depricating humor...it's funny right? Right? Ha ha? I try mightily to live life as one huge adventure, but the majority of the time it ends up being a bit of a farce. My new evaluative criteria when it comes to life experiences tends to be, "Will it make a good story one day? Then it was worth it." I also have an evil man hating attack cat that I adore and everyone else flees from.
5 Comments:
i'm proud of you for doing what is best for you and for choosing to hold out for love- you deserve it. i send you many many hugs, and hope you are appropriately drowning your sorrows in chocolate and tequila. wish i was there to join in.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxxBig Sis
fruit salad and iced tea actually, but i'm certain the tequila will come later. i know you're here with me in spirit and at least i have a damn good big sister to teach and remind me about what's important in life.
Im sorry to hear that you had a shitty day. Relationships often bring those things. At the same time, you did what you had to do, so in time, the immediate "pain" will subside and you will find that true perfect person for you. ;)
Nane,
I'm proud of you. You go on with your bad self. You are beeeyouteeful, smart and kind. You deserve somebody who is going to treat you like the goddess you are. Now you just have to get to point where you can stomach someone treating you appropriately.
Synge, if he is anything like "my" Mr. E.U. (whom things ended with just two days ago)
We're both better off. I bet both of us can do a hell of a lot better, anyways!
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