My First Day at School (aka I Pray for a Nice Beefy Tampon Commercial)

Tonight is my first day of school and as always, I'm a little nervous...feeling a little shy. What if my lunchbox breaks open on the bus? What if the teacher hates me? What if all the other kids look like freakin barbie and are all thin and plastically perfect and infintely more marketable than I am?

Tonight is my first class in a six week intensive commercial class, reccommended to me by an actor who had just booked a national spot for Wendy's. I've never taken a commercial class before; the closest I've come is the commercial unit in my acting for the camera class in college where I did some insurance commercial for my final project that was about puppies and babies and all other sorts of cutesy crap (the cheesiest copy imaginable, picked because I thought it was funny but I actually surprised myself with the sincerity I found). This marks yet another departure from my safety comfort zone of the stage with all its glorious economic non-viability, and a tenuous step into the terrifying lion cage of commercialism and marketability and all the insecurity it represents for me. It's also a renewed commitment to my career, as its a proactive affirmation of my complete willingness and want to whore out my talent.

I'm thinking if I could get some commercial gigs, I might actually be able to pay my rent; can you even imagine it?

I have to say that from the many e-mail correspondences and one 2 second phone conversation with my teacher, I already know I will absolutely adore him. He seems so very friendly and funny and open that I can't imagine the class won't naturally be a "safe space" - one of the most important things for any acting class to have, as without the necessary freedom to humiiliatingly fall flat on your face, you can never really fully go out on a limb and take huge risks. Even better is that I think he likes me too already; he remarked on my humerous e-mails and said that I sounded fun (thank you blog for helping me learn to come across as far cooler than I am through written word- I knew I started this blog for a reason other than boring all my old friends and the occasional passerby). This is great, as I already feel like perhaps I won't be the awkward nose pickinging geeky girl in the corner on the first day of school (what I always feel like internally); I'll be the fun awkward nose picking geeky girl in the corner with a wacky sense of humor! Yay!

Speaking of which, i'd better go hop in the shower so that I'm not the weird stinky girl in the corner.