Thanksgiving...Not Just for Turkeys and November Anymore!

I am back in New York as of about 2 hours ago... a little weary, a little worn, being a bad Jew and totally enamored of Jet Blue. I am a bad Jew because I am working on the holiest day of the year and I'm not fasting because I am a little sick and much more than a little run down. My rationale is that I atoned by way of taking care of Maman all last week, and really it is far more in line with the foundations of Judaism to repent through good deeds and righteous just action than to go to Synogogue and fast out of a sense of mere duty. In keeping with the introspective meaning of today, I actually wrote out a list of the things I am incredibly thankful for in an email to Lady Charon. It was wholly unintentional instrospection, mind you, and not exactly of the atoning sort...but it was such a gratifying and heartening experience to actually sit down and "count my blessings" as it were. I think we forget to do that in general, and its pretty damn important - especially in a stressful and sometimes painful time. So here is what I sent to Lady Charon...which may be a little cryptic and is written more in yoga speak than the oft sarcastic Synge speak, but its a pretty acurate account which just sort of spewed forth from the heart so I'd like to share it. Plus, I thought it was about time for a little bit more of an upbeat post and I'm a bit too tired to find the funny today. So without further ado (as if I were actually capable of that!), here is my list of what I am thankful for today. [editor's note: this list is in no way a complete accounting. Many things may have been left out in error or omitted due to the time constraints presented by sneakily emailing at work. For a complete listing...well, there isn't one. But you try writing this! it takes a while without even cracking the surface!]

"thank you for your beautiful grounding energy throughout all of this -
its huge and wonderful. i saved your voicemail and listened to it whenever
i could, and i felt your love and support with me at all times. such a blessing.

i am in weird transition back - breathing and remaining thankful for what i see as
the bounty of the season - a relationship with my father that is growing and
truly blossoming -there's a closeness there that has never ever been there before
(even amidst sometime frustration), a newfound commitment to making this time
with maman nothing short of quality togetherness -something i maintained a
constant awareness of in the past week, the deep love of a wonderful man and the
love we share together that seems to take firmer root and evolve more and more
each day, the lessons i am learning and teachings i am absorbing more and more
through my work for the school that i feel open my heart and expand my very core
in ways that words can't reallyexpress, my beautiful friends who have come to my
side at a moments notice before i can even say "i need you", my beautiful ruru
whose hand i feel in mine wherever i walk on my path, the wonderful energy i feel
with our "team"when we are rolling with the ideas and bursting with excitement,
ummm...oh,my veggies! my treasured veggies that nourish the body and the
spirit because they are gotten through a community...

wow. i didn't even mean to write that out, but that was a lovely experience! like a little gift to myself in addition to something i wanted to share withyou..but this email is long enough and the faucet that my nose has become needs some attending to.